There’s a Blessing in God’s Selfishness
I was angry at God in college. I was witnessing relationships blossoming and flourishing all around me. I felt like my love life was synonymous to the old State Farm commercial where the old fisherman tells the shopper, “You gotta be quicker than that.” At some point, I heard someone say that if you’re single, God is being selfish with you. Well, I was sick of God being selfish with me! I wanted a boyfriend and I wanted him NOW!
I was so angry with God that I even told him, “Stop being selfish with me.”
(Yeah…that didn’t end well.)
It was yeeeaaarrrsss later, before I discovered the benefit of God’s selfishness of me. He began to heal trauma I didn’t even know I had. He began to show me my true identity in Him. He began to show me how good my life was.
When you allow God to be selfish with you, the time is low-key lit. It’s peaceful and serene. It’s a discovery. There are some low times, but when you make it on the other side, it’s a joyous occasion!
Psalm 16:8-11 (NLT) says:
“I know the Lord is always with me.
I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.
No wonder my heart is glad, and I rejoice.
My body rests in safety.
For you will not leave my soul among the dead
or allow your holy one to rot in the grave.
You will show me the way of life,
granting me the joy of your presence
And the pleasures of living with you forever.”
For years, I stressed about my career, my future, my love life and everything else, but when I finally let go of my makeshift reigns and told God to take control, my anxiety and stress levels dramatically decreased.
